Friday, December 13, 2013

Mommy Problems

This is about to be a serious mommy post.  Are you all ready?  Here it goes.  I'm actually not really sure how to start this post.  So I'll just ramble for a little bit.

I'm sure every mom feels the same mix of feelings. My world is a constant balancing act.  For example, I've already had to stop writing this post 6 times to calm my baby boy, switch out the laundry, and put bottles away.  During the course of writing this post I also tripped over the baby gate (broke it) and am hoping I didn't gain any real injuries while wrapping an ice pack around my side.

Don't get me wrong, I know I have it good. I'm a stay at home mom, who has managed to start a career as a freelance writer in less than a year, with a hard working husband, and an amazingly loving and supportive family.  At times I feel like I'm "queen of the world" and can do anything and everything. Other times I feel like I need to do more, that I'm not doing enough or I'm not doing anything well.

It's the mommy guilt that comes with being pulled in a million directions ALL OF THE TIME. It doesn't help that deep down I'm a perfectionist. Not in the way that most are. Not in the everything has to be in its place, every material object has to be sparkling way. But in the sense that everything I do, everything I work at, everything I put my time into needs to be done perfectly. I need to do a perfect job. Which is completely unrealistic and unfair. I know I shouldn't put that pressure myself but I think it's something most moms and women feel.

And even though logically I know I should give myself a break, that as my husband tells me, I do my best and that's all anyone can do, the yucky feeling still comes over me at times.  I get down on myself.  I know it will eventually pass and I just keep trucking, but I wonder if there will ever be a time when I will no longer have the yuckiness wash over me. 
From what I've heard from other moms... It's a constant battle. If you feel like you're a great employee, you feel like a not so great mom. If you feel like a great mom, you feel you should be a better wife or friend. 

It's illogical, yes.  But not uncommon. No wonder women get the reputation of being insanely emotional! 

I'm hoping that with time I will discover ways to beat the mommy guilt. And once I do, I will be sure to share it with you all. But until then... Here are some helpful links.

My favorite since it's both amusing and relate-able -'s 31 Reasons You Shouldn't Feel Mom Guilt 

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